Should I just forget about it? Get on with my life until i find someone who actually cares? Take care of myself? I think so! I need to feel better about myself because most of the time I feel ugly and stupid. I am not strong, and I need to be.

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Director P. David Ebersole’s HIT SO HARD is a pull-no-punches portrait of the hell-and-back life of Patty Schemel, the hard-hitting drummer of Courtney Love’s seminal rock band Hole during its peak years. Schemel’s rise to fame on the wave of the early 90′s Seattle music explosion was fast, and her fall from grace (due to drug addiction) was nearly as speedy.
Featuring interviews with Schemel, Courtney Love, members of Hole, Faith No More, Veruca Salt, Luscious Jackson, The Go-Go’s, and more; the film is peppered with stunningly intimate, never-before-seen home videos filmed by and featuring Schemel, Love, and Kurt Cobain. HIT SO HARD is not just a look at the rise and fall of a single musician, it’s an insider’s view of the rise and fall of the whole Seattle scene.

Taken from pattydoc.com

I think working all these hours, plus the fact that I work 3rd shift for half the week was getting to me. I have no problems sleeping during the day but forget sleeping at night. Doesn’t work. But I’ve been taking some over-the-counter meds to help me sleep and they’ve been working great. So I’m less tired and less cranky lol.

My 2 jobs have been going well, I’m working at least 40 hours a week between the jobs. I don’t mind that I’m working 2 jobs right now, because I’ve been getting some kick ass checks!

My dad came home from the hospital almost 2 weeks ago, and he’s doing better. He still can’t walk on his own but at least he’s trying. I help him when I can. And now my mom’s knee is fucked up and she might have to have surgery. So I’m taking care of both my crippled parents. It’s a lot to deal with but I’m sure I’ll be okay.

As for everything else, I’m really busy but feeling better!

So much stuff going on right now.

KURT <3

My job. This Sunday night I am training at Case, a factory that makes tractors. It’s the highest-paying job for the security company I work for. That is awesome. Because not only will I be working 4 days a week at Case, I can also still work my hours at the library. No more unemployment checks. So sick of those. I’ll be working at least 40 hours a week.

My dad. He is in the hospital again. He had more strokes. But my mother and I have seen him, and he’s doing better than when we took him to the emergency room last Wednesday. I found him on the floor and he couldn’t walk. God I hope he’s going to make it this time.

My class. It sucks. I don’t like animation.

My tumblr. I think I have a new obsession. Here.